Semi-Sabbatical

Originally written 12-8-10

This last week has been a difficult one--having a special needs child is just so hard--It's even harder when help seems forever out of reach--I had much time to reflect and ponder this week, I took a semi-sabbatical of sorts--I needed time to just think--I spent time reading my bible, praying and just spending time 'being quiet' to listen--I didn't have any major ephiphanys or "hallejuah moments" as I call them--you know when you hear the angel choir singing hallejuah in the background--LOL--when the light comes on?!--but I did think alot about how God is our only real hope in any situation--that doesn't mean other humans cannot help us, but it does mean we need to rely on him even when seeking help from others--I tend to get a bit 'hot headed' at times when it comes to my dd--she has struggled for long with so many things and as tired as we are as her parents, I cannot imagine how much more tired she is--I also have to realize that not everyone is a believer and their way of viewing the world is different than mine--Looking at the world as a non-believer is totally different than looking at things as a beliver--At times it can cause conflict--While I do think this place dd is at is a great place and has done alot to help her--I still get a bit 'put out' by the attitudes of some there--Doesn't mean they are wrong, but there is way in which to talk and deal with people that is much less demeaning and hurtful--I suppose the issue we had/have is not in vain, as it has made me lean on the Lord even more, search my own heart and listen to my heavenly father--anytime we do that we cannot go wrong--

::Until Next Time::
The Deliberate Homesteader